I'm turning 56 soon.

OK, it's about time that I got my shit together. No self-loathing, no criticism....just a statement of fact. I read a post by Shannon with Through Thick and Thin about "living in the future" and that's exact-tactly what I've been doing for years. Sooooo many undone projects, ideas, and plans. I have great intentions but they never get developed. All the "materials" for those plans are sitting around my house.....my really small house.

The times I HAVE accomplished one of my plans, I've been thrilled and proud beyond belief. So...that tells me that getting off this road to hell will be...heaven! :)

A by-product of this endeavor is that I will be taking my focus away from food. Eating and bingeing have been my company throughout all this, and have been the way I handled the depression and frustration of not being able to.....get a damn thing done. I think of all the things I want to do...oh, yeah, and all the things I don't want to do like chores and bills and such...and I eat. I actually realized this was my coping mechanism of choice a few years ago. But I didn't know what to do with that information. I didn't know how to change anything.

In the last few months, everything seems to have come together....or is getting pretty damn close. I want to take charge. I don't want to wake up 5 years from now and say "what if?"

Who cares if it took me this long to get here? "Ain't nobody's business but my own..."